Reflecting on 2015

At New Year I always find myself reflecting about how previous years could have been better, getting upset about bad things that have happened or situations that were less than ideal. 2015 was different. There were no major life changes, nothing that made me particularly sad or anything that I particularly struggled with. I feel bad for saying that, for having a good year. A year during which I felt secure and content for once. In March we had Cheeky… Continue Reading “Reflecting on 2015”

Peace At Last

This is a post I’ve been wanting to write for a while. Much like my post where I “came out” about my alcoholism, it’s one that has been drafted and re-drafted several times, never quite hitting the publish button. While I was reluctant to post that because of the fear of being judged, of being seen as less than, of being forever tarred as a drunk although I am now sober, I have put off this one for fear of being… Continue Reading “Peace At Last”

More Children Homeless at Christmas #SlippersForShelter

I spend a lot of time reflecting on how lucky I am. Yes, I would like a bigger house, my own garden, more money, to have holidays, to be in less pain and more mobile, I think it’s part of the human condition to want more. Not in a desperate manner of course, more of “Maybe one day we will have a bigger house with our own garden” and no one really wants to be in pain all day, every… Continue Reading “More Children Homeless at Christmas #SlippersForShelter”

My Name is Rachel…

…and I am in recovery for alcoholism. Phew. Writing those words on this blog for the first time is scary. I had my last alcoholic drink on 9 March 2014. For some people that is no big deal. For someone who was drinking up to four or five bottles of wine towards the end, it’s a pretty big deal. It is something I am both proud and ashamed of. Proud that I have come this far, ashamed that I am an alcoholic… Continue Reading “My Name is Rachel…”

Having “Just one child”

More and more recently I have been thinking about our decision to have “just one child” and I have questioned that decision. In recent months a lot of pregnancies have been announced in the blogging community and there have been a few births as well. Beautiful videos of announcements are shared and I watch how happy children get when they discover they are going to be a big brother or sister and I feel a pang, a guilt that it… Continue Reading “Having “Just one child””